In the past three months, I have read dozens of erotic novels in more than 30 Pride and Prejudice variations. Most all this reading is been done on my iPad, using my Amazon Prime subscription to access these novels for no cost.
Much of this reading is been done as an escape from the pressures of the 7 day a week, 10 to 12 hour day project that I’ve been working on since the end of October.
The project came to an end at the end of 2018. I spent the best part of the first week of 2019 recovering, sleeping 12 hours a day and thinking about the past months. A couple things have become clear to me, of which the most important is the following.
During 2018 I’ve had practically no social life. The pressures of coping with the demands of finding income, and the reduced income that I’ve been struggling with, have kept me from spending any time interacting with other people, other than for work.
My reading has become an escape from the loneliness of this reality. Reading the Jane Austen variations have filled in an emotional need for social life. Reading the erotica as filled in an emotional and physical need for a relationship and sexual life.
I do not want to continue this behaviour trend into 2019. So I need to take steps to change things. But this reading pattern has affected the way I think about writing.
For the first time in a long time, the Susan Frazier novels and not been at the centre of my writing imagination. Instead, I’ve been playing with starting a new novel which is erotica in nature.
At the same time, I decided to be much more open about the erotic poetry that I write. Both will start to show up on this site. I’m curious as to what kind of reactions I’m going to get this material.
I’m playing with the idea of self-publishing somewhere between 4 to 5 erotic novels this year. I am thinking of building the erotica poetry to the point where I can self publish a short volume. I will use Dragon NaturallySpeaking to do the initial drafts of much of this material, as well as use it more and more to write this blog.
Let’s see if the intention – the New Year’s resolution if you like – matches my actual behaviour over the course of the year.
But even more interestingly, let’s see if my determination to build the social life is something that I actually invest energy into during 2019.
